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Worldcon 2024

At last, time to sit back and reflect on a very special trip in August, all the way to Glasgow 2024, A Worldcon for Our Futures. This was the 82nd World Science Fiction Convention brought to Scotland, and what an inspiring few days it was.

Worlds within worlds took shape in imaginative architecture nestled alongside the river Clyde, a wonderful place to take a break and reflect, with time enough for a stroll downstream and castaway on the Tall Ship, Glenlee, delving into the truly extraordinary stories of life on board sea voyages not for the faint-hearted. Research comes in many forms for writers, and immersed in the ship’s atmosphere, I let my imagination wander to an incredible journey one character of mine is forced to make. But my work-in-progress novel is another story.

 

 

Back to the convention and it was great to catch up with familiar faces, meet new people, and take part in panel discussions examining the length and breadth of these fascinating genres.

It was a pleasure exploring the connection between being an artist and a storyteller, discussing the process of being a visual writer and storytelling artist, and how the visual, and narrative, blend into a similar space, all through interwoven creative mediums. Surrounded by so much colour, there was a lot to inspire.

More on visual writing another time, but one very special guest of honour, a current favourite author of mine, Nnedi Okorafor, is a writer whose work I find particularly visual – colourful, striking and memorable. It was a wonderful opportunity to see her interviewed in person, to put a face to words I have poured over. A pioneer in many ways, her personal story is inspiring, as is all she continues to achieve through her work, a woman who stayed true to herself and her convictions, who defied genre (or at least white-centric, first world genre norms), and in doing so, we are treated with Africanfuturism and Africanjujuism. I find her work to be unapologetic, strong, colourful and pushing boundaries in exploring a vibrant world.

Another panel I had the pleasure of joining explored diversity of a different kind, from queer triumphs to utopias and everything in-between. It’s a wonderfully explorative theme to consider, stories where marginalised people are being framed as the hero, getting to the heart of identity through looking closely at a character’s intersections, glancing back at history to support understanding, as well as imagining anew. Considering the interplay between stories and the real world, how one influences the other and vice versa, we need those new imaginings, and as a writer I work alongside my characters to see their hopes realised. Themes of identity, self-determination and empowerment feature in my work, since I find that conceptualising hope stems from steps taken towards our own authentic standing in the world. From awareness of our identity, we invest in contributing to others being able to flourish, including the natural world since our futures are entwined; we are a part of nature. It’s a familiar journey for me, one that my characters walk, as they explore collaboration, connectivity and shared values.

The dealers room was a joy. It was great to see piles of the British Science Fiction Association’s Magazine, Focus, where a recent article of mine is published, entitled Breaking Binaries of Good versus Bad in SFF.

 

And of course it was a wonderful chance to catch up with my publishers, the lovely folks of Stairwell Books, as well as pick up a few titles to come home with for my ever-expanding to-read pile.

And so to end with a question: what are you reading?

For the Love of Books #32

A nod to my last post themed on nature, and a recommendation following a gorgeous day out in Dorset at Abbotsbury Swannery. Tipping a dramatic coastline, this unique and natural wildlife habitat is the only place in the world where you are able to walk through the heart of a managed colony of free-flying, nesting Mute Swans. And what a place to live – it’s no wonder they choose to stay.

 

And after a big breath of avian sea air, it’s back to the realm of stories with Comic Con. Star Wars is clearly a favourite, and the full size array of robots through the franchise. They may be made of metal, but they are far from expressionless.

The emergence of AI and its interplay in the art world is a big topic. From droids, space travelling humanoids, alien terminators, and colonising machines set to take over the world, robotics and AI have long featured in our stories. Recently I was introduced to a fascinating series, with a whole new take on this vast subject:

The Subjugate; by Amanda Bridgeman

In a watchful world where humanity is complemented by AI, cities are ruled by security companies, yet crime and murder are still commonplace. The story features two detectives, Salvi Brentt and Mitch Grenville, each one an interesting character in their own right, with intriguing complex backstories and a dynamic that at times complimented the dis-ease of the thriller, which I found compelling.

The setting of the story is well-drawn, an imagined future where ethical limitations of AI are subtly observed, with talking robo-cleaners and dedicated AI prefilling data of transcriptions and interviews, yet always with a human hand to sign them off to ensure their eligibility in court. Yet some pullaway communities are resisting technological advances. Just outside the city, the unincorporated community of Bountiful is one of the leading pullaway communities, and one of the most religious. Founded in 1934, it is a town built on religion, populated by the Children of Christ. There’s no internet, mobile phones or computers, although it does have a close relationship with the nearby Solme Complex. The Solme Complex houses violent criminals called Subjugates, who undergo extreme treatments involving religion and technology, and include painful chemical castrations and implanted neural technology which can be used to shock into submission. There are interesting themes around redemption, forgiveness and freedom from sin, with aptly disturbing methods. Subjugates who are successfully converted over the course of several years of ‘treatment’ are called Serenes. They are released unsupervised but with the neural implants recording electrical activity in the brain. When heightened emotion is detected, it triggers a visual alarm in the silver crown worn by Serenes, called a halo.

Following the discovery of a young woman’s body in the community of Bountiful, the two detectives head out to investigate. A discovery of biolume at the scene, bacterial natural lighting, leads them to the Solme Complex, with Subjugates the prime suspects. As the investigation continues, further layers of the world are revealed, with the relevant question of ‘how far is too far’ with technology explored through inventive examples, including augmented realities where avatars are free to play out forbidden desires. There are questions around, just because you can, should you, and are we all slaves to something whether it be religion, technology, or law enforcement? And there are themes around how this all connects to freedom and control. In a bid to be free, do we just end up creating further structures, disciplines and controls? Is freedom truly possible in a world of corruption? I enjoyed the exploration of these big questions, the intriguing future dystopian world, and contrasting characters leading this fast-paced sci-fi thriller that kept me wanting to know more.

The Sensation; by Amanda Bridgeman

Salvi Brentt had killed a man, and he had almost killed her. Under psych review she was cleared for active duty and has a new partner, the department’s dedicated AI, Riverton. A case opens when the body of 34-year-old Devon Barker is found in Sensation. A woman, Myki Natashi, is discovered unconscious in the bedroom by police, who had responded to a domestic disturbance. Myki doesn’t know what happened, and only remembers dinner the night before with Devon. Vincent Calabri was seen in the area, a man with a small rap sheet in the employ of detective Francis Melon, who is Myki’s ex-boyfriend of 3 years. Melon works in the financial industry, a known acquaintance of John Dorant, affording him loose ties to organised crime, and friends in high places. This case is also coupled with the murder of undercover officer, Caine, and the disappearance of the Chief’s daughter into a drug gang.

As in the first book of the series, I enjoyed the character arcs, and in particular the main character, Salvi, a complex woman with a past, and strength to face herself and get the job done. She is still seeing her old partner, Mitch, which was an interesting aspect of her character development in the first book, and continues to add interest in this sequel. Previously, Salvi had faced two serial killers, and one was still alive: Edward Moses, Subjugate-52, locked up in the Solme Complex. Subjugate-52 has been asking for Salvi. He hasn’t received what was promised him after helping Salvi in the last case. He was promised to become a Serene, but Salvi disappeared on him, renegading on her word. Now she is concerned what level of deception he is capable of, and how he might manipulate access to the wider world.

The development of the role of AI in this sequel was particularly interesting. Talking robo-cleaners have names, and the AI, Riverton, is humanised through friendly interactions, showing apparent consideration to which Salvi responds in kind. Hackers cause chaos to evidence by wiping CCTV footage, and more sinister, they hack neural implants that leave a brain wide open to abuse and full-on takeover. A broad range of available technology sees a further reduction in human/human interaction, with drone surveillance, VR headsets and tasers, robot dancers, and holographic forms. Neural tech is also injected in drug form, rendering a person entirely helpless to being used as a sex droid. There are interesting questions here, since the drug lowers a person’s inhibitions and heightens sexual desire, leading to sex. But this is under the influence of a drug, illegally administered without consent, and therefore constitutes rape.

Tech used to keep subjugates in line can equally be used to keep slaves in line, adding a further, compelling sinister edge. Salvi is on a deadly mission to uncover truths, and among the truths are: where do we draw the line, who is good and who is bad or is society just lurking somewhere between, what is right and wrong and who has the right, who is hunter and who is prey? Technology affords power, and with it comes responsibility, but is anyone responsible enough? These are questions I am left with, making this an inspiring read.

What are you reading?

Nature’s Magic

Summer is here and through the mixed bag of rain and shine, it’s lovely to get out and about for a breath of fresh air at the river, where cygnets are hatching and the heron’s out fishing, and swallows fly ducking and diving over the reeds.

And in the River Otter, industrious beavers are building their damns. We were lucky enough to catch sight of one of these gorgeous creatures tucking into a well-earned dinner, and all thanks to Devon Wildlife Trust. DWT successfully pushed back against the UK government who had planned to have beavers removed from the river after a sighting of kits in 2008. After consultation, the first wild beaver re-introduction project began, starting with two family groups. These industrious creatures successfully began managing the waterway, and after evidencing the benefits to both people and wildlife, in 2020 the government announced Devon’s beavers could stay – and spread naturally into other river catchments. It was the first legally sanctioned reintroduction of an extinct native mammal to England. Currently there are 15 family groups estimated, and long may they continue to thrive.

An appreciation of wildlife extends into my fantasy series, Blood Gift Chronicles, with nature and magic entwining to form a luxurious backdrop. The natural world is more than a setting, it is a character, with moods, histories and qualities that can be bizarre, tragic, mysterious, frightening or inspiring. Once the backdrop is alive, I explore how the characters interact with it, and how it weaves its way into revealing culture, belief, and conflict.

The natural world is intrinsic in the worlds we create. It provides us with food and water, and air to breathe; it nurtures crops with rain and sun, offering herbs with medicinal properties; it is one of the reasons we are alive. I enjoy stories that invite us to reflect on our relationship with living things. While some stories portray characters with human-like traits, I prefer to work with a more realistic approach, and leave it up to the human characters to discover ways of forging connections with wildlife that is wild.

The first book in the series, Return of the Mantra, explores the idea of nature being personified against a backdrop of conflict. The young woman protagonist, Suni, explores contrasting environments, surviving to discover and forge her own identity which strengthens her fight for justice. Another significant character, a boy called Wanda, begins his mysterious journey in understanding his unique connection with wildlife. Through the series we see characters age and grow as the world expands, and revelations are explored through the connections characters have with the natural world. There is tenderness, wisdom, ferocity, devastation, and strength, through themes of self-determination, environmental justice, love, loss, and becoming. I particularly enjoy scenes of heightened empathy that express the significance of our relationship with the natural world. And in writing book 3 I’m enjoying the renewed strength that characters old and new bring, among wildlife that lets us know just how significant it truly is. In turn there is an exploration of what it means to be human, vulnerable and alive.

And now, back to the novel…

Wishing everyone a lovely week ahead…

Elemental Spring

Early spring passed mostly in a flurry of wind and rain, and plenty of time to stay indoors with Blood Gift Chronicles and the magical twists and turns and soaring heights of Book 3’s WIP. But every now and then the weather holds long enough for a trip outdoors to see a refreshing sight.

From the stately home of Knighthayes, watched over by Devon’s rolling hills, and marking a grand presence over sprawling gardens of giant trees and early blooming rhododendrons…

To the watery expanse of Fernworthy reservoir, where moss-covered woodland is a step in time with magical realms…

For work, a visit to the local radio station was a highlight, in recognition of International Women’s Day. No photos this year but a reminder of last year’s late show with the phenomenal Mama Tokus, and our wonderful host, Kerrie Seymour.

It was great to be able to return this year, contributing to the ambitious 24 hour radio take-over by Dreadnought South West, sharing poetry themed on IWD, and chatting about writing, books and all I have coming up this year, including WorldCon and an epic trip to Glasgow in the summer. I’m super excited for a jam-packed, SFF weekend, and a chance to meet up with my lovely publishers, Stairwell Books.

Closer to home and we’ve just emerged from a weekend book festival on the Hartland Coast.

It was blustery there too, but a great chance to visit the dragon rocks of Hartland (or at least that’s how I see them), in the lovely company of my wife. I wrote The Warder before ever visiting this place, and yet I spy familiar sights with dramatic rock faces, circling birds of prey, rugged paths, multi-toned wild gorse, and a distant island view – Lundy Island in real life. With a writing week ahead, I’m inspired.

And while the blustery wind and rain has returned today, so too has spring made an appearance.

Wishing everyone a good week ahead…

Stories Stories Everywhere

Comic Con, the perfect excuse for dipping into Somerset in February. As expected, it was a perfectly eclectic and colourful day. The fun at these events is infectious, and it’s inspiring to see stories embraced so whole-heartedly. And it was wonderful to be there with my fantasy series, Blood Gift Chronicles. As I meet new readers, it’s always a thrill to wonder what people will make of the stories, what parts might reach them and linger, which scenes will prove memorable. I’m also always happy to have my own character art with me on the journey, emboldening answers to what the stories are about – it is their story after all.

And of course, while in Somerset, why not take a trip to Wells Cathedral, which soared beyond expectation with its voluminous chambers and endless passageways. The outer walls encased in a stone labyrinth, are alive with flocks of roosting pigeons among other birds. Inside, stories upon stories unfold, of history, and of imagined possibility in this magical place. It is home to the second oldest clock in the world, which has the oldest working clock face in the world, which is a beautiful piece of art in its own right. To add further interest, we stumbled on an art exhibit, where old meets new in reconstructed wedding dresses raising money for local charities. Spying a rainbow flag in amongst the gowns was a bonus. And to top off a glorious visit, meet Basil the cat, who happily takes up residence in the gift shop, whenever he chooses.

To end the day, storybook scenes continue at nearby Bishop’s Palace, with a flagstone drawbridge and surrounding moat, where for centuries, swans have been trained to ring the bell at dinnertime…

And I’ll leave you with a story of a different kind, told in a memorable sculpture found at The Box, in Plymouth. The sculpture is entitled, ‘End of Empire’, depicting two figures with globe heads on a steam-punk seesaw in a symbol of Victorian industrialism. It’s fascinating to watch the slow-swinging seesaw, in a movement symbolising a rebalancing and move towards end of empire.

Ah, the power of stories… xx

 

Shades of Inspiration

It’s been a busy start to the year. Approaching the end of January and I wonder where the month has gone. Manuscript edits are under way, and I’m enjoying time spent with my characters in a world that grows more colourful, and more daring with each scene. And my collection of shorts and poetry is also growing; it’s wonderful to get out and about sharing words.

As always, January is the time for making plans, signing up, and getting dates in the diary. The excitement of the year is WorldCon coming to the UK. Plans are underway for the trip to Glasgow, with the added bonus of the guest of honour who just happens to be one of my favourite authors… guess who…

‘People get inspired to write, paint, draw, sing, sculpt, dance in many different ways. And there are many types of art. But the one thing that they all have in common is that they are all a sort of magic. Sometimes the magic flows from one’s fingers, other times it is transferred to the person who experiences the result. Magic has always worked in mysterious ways.’ – Nnedi Okorafor.

And a recent book-haul is just waiting to be devoured.

Inspiration comes in many forms, and I’m lucky to have so much around to inspire. A recent trip to the Pulp Exhibit in Bovey Tracey was a glorious injection of colour on a cold afternoon, and an interesting look at the interface between art, the environment and how we question the world. The sculptures are made from recycled cardboard and it’s the second time for me viewing this artist’s work. James Lake, it won’t be the last.

My own art project is underway, inspired by local Devon and Cornwall surrounds – more at a later date. And I continue to venture out and about, soaking up scenery that one way or another finds its way into writing.

From big skies over the Teign valley, watched over by Castle Drogo…

To waterwheels, ancient bridges, giant oaks and winter snowdrops, lining the River Bovey.

Close encounters with the outdoors, spying the layers of nature and colour making up the scenic tapestry, is the best inspiration for building worlds. And that’s where I’ll leave you for today, while I travel through the pages of my latest instalment of Blood Gift Chronicles. There may not be snowdrops, but there is yellow gorse and purple heather, and natural extracts to ward off the curse of the evil eye…

Have a great week!

Happy New Year 2024!

As New Year’s Eve turns dark outside, the storm is raging. Batten down the hatches, grateful for a moment of peace to reflect on the year gone by. 2023 has been a busy year for writing, starting with a chance to guest blog with the esteemed fantasy author, Sarah Ash. It’s the second time I’ve been lucky enough to be invited, and for anyone who has yet to read from this author, I can highly recommend visiting her many titles. Songspinners, has been one of my favourite reads of the year: the intriguing tale of Orial, a girl navigating the labyrinth of the Undercity to practice the art she has taught herself, the art of music that is her magic; in a world that is dark, evocative and beautifully drawn, a place of musical telepathy, faeries, dragonflies, and mystical reservoirs await…

Book conventions and festivals from Birmingham to the New Forest, to the Hartland Peninsula of Devon, to the city of Kansas, USA via the wonders of zoom from my writing room were all highlights. With readings and panels, it is wonderful to share, to discuss, to learn, to inspire, and be inspired. And there are lots more creative ventures to look forward to in 2024. I look forward to sharing more as news unfolds.

For now, in the lull between Xmas and New Year, in between blustering gales and rain, it was lovely to catch a few snatches of dry clear skies to enjoy a moment of the outdoors around home, and nature, for a breath of fresh air before it’s back to work. Between the lakes of Stover, with afternoon sun, fluffy clouds, scenic forest, gorgeous lakes, poetry, wood carvings, curious squirrels, hungry ducks, and a woodpecker…

 

To the fresh sea air of South Devon, and Teignmouth’s old port, and beaches crammed with colourful boats with stories to tell…

To the bright lights of Torquay to feast on this year’s bay of lights, where more wild seas await, crashing to and fro towards Xmas trees and festive Torbay palms looking especially jazzy.

And back home, where a sleepy cat awaits, and another good read beckons.

Wishing everyone a happy, healthy, peaceful New Year, 2024!

 

The Gift of Stories

Stopping by to wish everyone Seasons Greetings & Happy Holidays, and to offer a huge thanks to all of my readers of Blood Gift Chronicles, for your continued support and enjoyment of my beloved characters in Return of the Mantra, and The Warder.

And as Xmas approaches, along with seasonal traditions of jolabokaflod, as a writer and an avid reader I am once again reminded that stories are a gift.

To that end, I offer a short story of mine, entitled Moorbrooke; a ghost story set on the misty moors for those who enjoy an atmospheric haunting. Moorbrooke was recently published in audio, by The Other Stories. To listen to the audio version, click here.

Moorbrooke

By Susie Williamson

Deep in the heart of Dartmoor, John is a guilty man. As the mist closes in, he wonders, will he escape retribution?

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John stared at his reflection in the hallway mirror. Cool grey eyes looked back. He hadn’t meant to kill her, he told himself with an affirming nod.

            There was an expected knock at the door. The estate agent was on time. John would be glad to sell Moorbrooke and get back to civilisation. He brushed a hand back through his hair, straightened his collar, fixed a smile on his face, and opened the door. There was no one there.

            ‘Hello,’ John called. No answer.

            He stepped outside and called again, wondering how the mist had rolled in without him noticing. There was still no answer and no sign of a car in the yard. He rubbed his arms, feeling the October chill, and paused, seeing a card blowing across the ground, landing at his feet. He bent down and picked it up, gritting his teeth at the sight of the tarot card’s picture of Justice. He looked out across the yard, towards moorland part-hidden in the misty haze. A lone, hooded figure stood beyond the gate. It was Hannah’s witch-friend, Sue. He clenched his fist, screwing the card up in his hand, then turned and headed back into the cottage.

            The lounge door was ajar. John was sure he had closed it. He paused, confused by the sight of green-swirled threadbare carpet showing through the open doorway. He stepped towards it and placed a hand on the door. When he pushed it open, everything was as it should be: polished wood flooring with a cream woollen rug by the fireplace. He stopped to gather himself. He was just imagining things. He went in and opened the door of the wood burner, placed a log on the dying fire, and watched with satisfaction as the flames took hold. He dropped the screwed-up tarot card into the fire, closed the door, then went to the window. Sue was still there, watching the cottage, her face framed by the furry parka hood. John looked back, until her outline disappeared as mist turned to fog. He sighed at the thought that the roads would be impassable. A remote life on Dartmoor had been his idea, and he’d enjoyed it while it lasted, but the moor’s temperamental weather was something he wouldn’t be sad to leave behind.

            He went into the kitchen to make a start on dinner, glad he’d done a week’s shop only the day before. While browning chicken, he diced an onion, so strong it made his eyes smart. He wiped the tears blurring his eyes, picked up a carrot and started to chop. Feeling a sudden chill at his back, his concentration faltered. The knife slipped, cutting into his finger. He winced, pausing at the sight of pooling blood, then went to the sink to wash his hand. Once a plaster was firmly in place, he turned and paused mid-stride. The tarot card, with edges still smouldering, lay on the chopping board. His heart was racing as he picked up the card and headed back to the lounge. Passing the hallway, he saw the front door was open ajar. He went to it and stood leaning out of the doorway.

            ‘Stay away from my house, you fucking witch!’ he yelled into the fog.

            He slammed the door and locked it, then went into the lounge, placed another log on the fire, and watched the tarot card burn.

            Once dinner was cooking in the oven, John returned to the lounge and settled down in the armchair, answering a call from the estate agent who confirmed they would try to visit the next day. The call ended and John paused, eyes fixed on the painting on the wall: an autumnal Dartmoor landscape painted by his dead girlfriend, Hannah. He slowly stood and cracked his knuckles. With teeth clenched, he went to the painting and lifted it down from the wall. He hadn’t allowed Hannah’s trash in the house when she was alive, he sure as hell wouldn’t have them on the wall now that she was dead. But just how was that bitch, Sue, doing this.

            In the hallway he put on his coat and headed out to the back of the house, one arm clutching the painting, one arm held out in front as he struggled to see in the thick fog. Inching his way to the garage, he reached the old wooden door, fiddled with the key in the lock until the rusty padlock gave way. He pulled the door open, clicked on the drawstring light that bathed the room in a sickly yellow glow. Hannah’s paintings were stacked beneath a clear plastic sheet that offered little protection from encroaching damp: various moorland scenes and nearby towns with moody tones of blue, grey and brown. John dropped the painting on top of the pile, and glanced across at Hannah’s old workbench. It might be cold and damp but it was a place of her own to work: she always had been ungrateful. He was about to leave but reconsidered, stopping to tuck the painting under the sheeting along with the rest.

            Back inside, he ate dinner, sucking the chicken bones clean, then settled in the armchair sipping Jack Daniels, staring at the empty picture hook where Hannah’s painting had been. Why couldn’t he remember what had been hanging there? He didn’t remember feeling sleepy or seeing the sky outside turn dark. The next thing he knew, he was waking up in the chair with morning sun shining in at the window. He stretched his stiff arms, rubbed the back of his neck, and slowly stood. After a morning pot of tea, he opened the front door, surprised by how warm it was and relieved to see no sign of any mist. The estate agent would surely make it out today, but first, a walk and some fresh air.

            John headed out across the yard, through the gate, and over moorland, towards nearby Rowtor, nestled among the red/golden glow of turning leaves and fading ferns. The distant sound of chattering, chirping, flocking birds approached, bringing the sky to life. He gazed up at the pink tinged sky, blossoming with rosy hues, surprised to see the starling murmuration so early in the day. Mesmerised by the kaleidoscope of flowing, shifting, mushrooming waves, a perfect balance of unity, in comparison, he felt strangely disconnected. It was a thought that stayed with him as he trekked up to the Tor, wondering at the distance between body and mind. Reaching the granite top, he lay a hand on the cold stone, but felt the ground shift beneath his feet. He stepped back, and watched something push up through the grass: it was a bone, perhaps a humerus or femur, that came to rest at his feet. The ground stirred all around, and John knew where to look. He had chopped up Hannah’s body as easily as he would dice a chicken, and discarded her bones in shallow graves across the moor; a suitable meal for passing scavengers.

            John was awoken by a sudden thump. He sat up with a start, and stared at the window to see a dead starling slumped against the pane. He rubbed his eyes, feeling his skin doused in a cold sweat, and checked the time on his phone. It was morning. It was still foggy. It had been just a nightmare. He slid the phone into his back pocket, rose stiffly from the chair, and went to make tea. He opened the kitchen door and froze, seeing the room appear as it had when they had first moved in several years ago: a vintage wood effect laminate surface set against orange and green flowered retro tiles straight out of the 70s, and in the corner, an old rumbling boiler making an intermittent dull clunk. Thud. He turned briefly, anticipating another starling hitting the window. When he looked back, the kitchen had returned to its usual natural ivory. John inhaled a long slow breath and walked towards the kettle, where a tarot card lay in wait, pictured with The Hanged Man.

            John stared at the card, wiping a hand across his mouth, then opened the junk drawer, slid the card in, and slammed the drawer shut.

            ‘You’re dead,’ he said out loud. He turned around and said it louder: ‘Do you hear me, Hannah. You’re dead.’ He pointed to his chest. ‘I killed you.’ He waited, hearing only silence, and let out a nervous laugh. ‘As soon as the estate agent gets here, this house will be on the market.’ He laughed again, then quietly added, ‘Talking to yourself. Now you’re the mad bastard.’

            He poured a cup of tea, staring at the light rippling on the surface as he stirred, one hand resting on the counter that turned grainy to the touch. He lifted his hand away from what looked like granite stone. Before his eyes, grey stone transformed back into the kitchen surface, while granite dust still lingered on his fingers. He balanced two digestive biscuits on the saucer, and carried the tea into the lounge. At the door one biscuit fell to the ground. He stopped and bent down, seeing the biscuit lying in grass at his feet. Slowly, he picked it up and returned it to the saucer, while a familiar sound, faint at first but growing louder, rang through the cottage: the chattering and chirping of a starling murmuration. He was walking through moorland grass, surrounded by calling birds, and he was in his lounge with the usual furniture, and ivory painted walls… Except Hannah’s painting was back on the picture hook.

            Should he run and take his chances in the fog? Thud. Another dead starling hit the window, leaving a crack in the pane. John placed the teacup down on the table, and walked slowly towards the painting. This time he would burn it. He reached up, taking hold of the frame with both hands, and felt a sudden force pull on his arms. He tried to pull back, tried to let go, but his hands were stuck fast. The textured oil-painted surface pressed into his skin, sinking into his flesh. John pressed his head forward, feeling the urge to swallow as nausea surged. When it subsided, he was standing bent over with his hands on his knees, breathing fresh moorland air with grass beneath his feet. He slowly stood, feeling his hands tacky as he prised them from his knees. He held his hands in front, inspected the palms, seeing his fingertips marked with dried oil paint.

            He staggered over to the nearby rocks of Rowtor, and collapsed down against the cool granite. Distracted by vibrating in his back pocket, he reached in and took out his phone. A card fell out at the same time, and dropped onto the stony ground, picture up of The Hanged man. John stared at the phone, seeing Hannah’s name flash across the screen. He raised a finger to the screen, wavering, before he pressed to answer the video call. It was Hannah’s face looking back at him. She didn’t speak, just held a solemn expression, her eyes gently narrowed as though curiously inspecting him. Then she held the phone away, holding it out, moving it around the cottage so that John could see. Outside the window, the fog was slowly lifting, the log fire burning, the kettle was boiling, and Hannah’s Dartmoor landscape was hanging on the wall. She closed the phone in on the painting. John got a close up view of the rocks of Rowtor, and of a lone man, himself, standing beside the granite outcrops, looking out over moorland with a red/golden glow of turning leaves and fading ferns. A rosy pink sky topped the scene, dotted with a starling murmuration. And as the sound of chattering, chirping, flocking birds grew near, John looked skywards, lost in the feathered kaleidoscope.

THE END

Changing Seasons

In the UK, it’s the time of year for big skies and changing colours, from autumn fall when the most ordinary routes transform into otherworldly, and pumpkins litter the ground of muddy fields alongside newly sprouting brussel sprouts. These are the picture postcard fields of nearby Darts Farm, with views all the way to the sea.

Onto Plymouth, where shorter days change the light in just a few hours, transforming the harbour’s morning dusk, to cool light. Disappearing into Plymouth aquarium for a while, which boasts the biggest aquarium in the UK, was a treat. Home to smiling stingrays, gliding sharks, and a special turtle named Friday who is a delight. All of this and so much more, including fascinating insights into mermaid purses.

The sun is still shining, for a while at least, with streaking skies topping the lighthouse of Smeaton’s tower, before dusk quickly falls again, and you soak the atmosphere of sleeping boats.

Colder still, and back home the river Exe turns clear like glass, topped by breath-taking skies that alter the light minute by minute depending on the angle of the view. As perfect reflections look back from water’s deep, topped by swans, ducks and geese unfazed by the cold, it brings the perfect sense of calm.

Onto an afternoon in Totnes, and lights of a different kind, from views over the River Dart where daylight depends which side of the bridge you’re looking out from, to golden lights that light the night. All for a visit to the wonderful Castle Books for magical poetry sharing.

Before home, and work, for some at least.

Have a great week, everyone… xx

Artistic Inspiration

News from my world of Art, and it was wonderful to discover that my painting, ‘Rural Market’, won an Honourable Mention Award in the 2023 Teravarna Art Competition.

Rural Market; by Susie Williamson

This piece is from my collection of African inspired landscapes depicted in my Abstract Landscapes blog – click here. These pieces are painted from memory, thought, feeling… work motivated quite simply to remember friends from a time I lived and worked on the continent in 1999 into early 2000s, including three years in South Africa. Those friendships inspired the following poetic conversation…

Abesifazane base-Afrika

You were meant to be guardians of your homeland…

Not suffer to be stifled by cruel apartheid,

The greed, the violence, the pillage and rape,

Of your gifted ancestral lands.

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You were meant to sing the chorus of your homeland…

You were not meant to face your name replaced,

Your identity scarred by language stripped,

Your songs and prayers denied.

*

You were meant to know freedom in your stride…

You were not meant to suffer the indignity of poverty,

To see with clouded eyes from your tin roofed shack,

As the lights flicker off.

*

You were meant to sow fertile soil of Africa…

You were not meant to strain on mountainous terrain,

Rock littered earth, soil too thin to harvest,

Lingering memories of forced evictions.

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You were meant to be proud of your ancestral lands…

Not suffer shame-filled hungry pangs,

Belly empty, mouth watering, looking down over vast fields of crops,

Where your homes once stood.

*

You were meant to carve the future for your children…

Not be shackled to a fate of criminal debt,

While you walk cracked earth, parched droughts, breathing fumes,

Of industries of the rich.

*

You were meant to know peace in Africa’s sun…

You were not meant to know the violence of desolation,

Cool breath of fear, as gunshots chime through the midnight hour,

And a distant scream rings.

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You were meant to smear red earth and white clay on your skin…

Your blood was not meant to stain that earth,

These were not meant to be your stories,

You are the keeper of your stories,

And you sing with heads held back and mouths wide, as your notes carry far and wide, in a tune…

POWERFUL ENOUGH TO SWAY THE MOUNTAIN.

I still sway in the harmony of your song, and feel the tremors of the steps you take,

Your words remain on the tip of my tongue, my pen is poised with the rise and fall of your name,

My heart swells with your fears, your hopes and your dreams…

But…

you are the keeper of your story,

While my brush sweeps on canvas to house memories of you,

Shared times we aspired and I cherish your smile…

Sicula ngesizulu,

Abesifazane base-Afrika,

Ekhaya e-Afrika,

Iningizimu Afrika,

Nkosi Sikelel’ iAfrika.